Interracial relationships... white or wrong?

I never thought it was a problem for black women to date outside our ethnicity. Boy how wrong I was. I mean look black men date outside their ethnicity and yet nobody gives a damn but as soon as a black woman wants to date outside her race society shuns her and her significant other... which is bullshit. Sure I'm dating a "WB" (white boy) and we get attacked by the glares the sly comments or the really loud murmurs of my black peers. Now it just maybe me and my lack of understanding but please just someone let me know where the fuck black women (who are in my situation) have the right to be attacked like this by our own people?? Not comprehending a very important issue.

Micheal Vick= another OJ repeat??

Being an African-American female... I do get some racial remarks thrown at me from time to time but I try and not let them bother me... but the issue I have is not about me and my every now and then racial conflicts its about a man and some dogs... Michael Fucking Vick... Now also being a African-American we really don't have that much to look at on the TV (right now) when it comes to excitement (unless you call a drive-by shooting killing 6 is exciting). Jerry Rice was beginning to fall off the map and so many black people's attention went from the NFL to the NBA but when Michael Vick was drafted he became IT. Of course he did get into some trouble with the law like any other young-minded NFL player, but this... did it. For the people that do not know... Micheal Vick has been indicted on charges stemming from dog-fighting. There are too many ways you could look at this situation. I'm going to take the "person with common sense" vs. "a plain ol' dumbass": Plain ol' Dumbass (PoD): I don't think Micheal Vick did anything! He's a good man! Common Sense (CS): Now... I'm not going to argue Micheal's morality rate here... for all I know he's a good Samaritan. But there was evidence found at his house that is usually used for dog fighting. PoD: Well how do you know that couldn't have been his friends? CS: Maybe it is... but at the same time... the shit was at HIS HOUSE!! Of course the owner of the property is going to be punished first if not anybody else. Because he consented to the use of his being used in that way- PoD: How do you know that's what he consented to? For all you know his house could have been used for training see-eye dogs? CS: You're joking right? HE LIVED IN THAT HOUSE!! He knew what the f*ck was going on in there... please don't give me that. He knew what he was doing when he allowed his friends to that type of business into his house and he also knew the risks... now it's possible his NFL career maybe over. PoD: *silence* CS: Thank you. Now as for the matter of racial lines or not... I can't honestly say I think Micheal Vick was actually involved in the whole dog fighting (besides consenting to allowing them to use his house). But on that note... so many black people believe what I have just typed and many white people will oppose what I just typed as well... and even though I am only 16 years old... I do know this... OJ Simpson was a football player... he was accused of killing his wife... he was black... the racial lines were drawn in that case as well. I just don't see how people can sit there (who have been on this earth way longer than I have) and it not bring back memories of the OJ trial... I don't even think I was born... and yet I'm asking questions seeing where I could go with this. I just say let the trial play out... if he's found guilty... many black people will hang their head in shame as another (successful) black man will waste away in prison... if hes found not-guilty... many black people will rejoice at the sound of another black man escaping the harsh grip of justice. Me?? I'll be on the racial line... awaiting the verdict. Hating the harsh reality of life

Band Nerd alert??

This upcoming Monday (the 30th) we (Nimitz High School of Irving, TX) will start our summer band! Now I wasn't all gung-ho about band starting again. It would cut into my time at work which left me with a shorter check which led to not having enough money for... well lets just say that I wasn't so excited. Now this year it's different; we have new directors AGAIN (third time in the past 3 years for me)... but this guy seems different. He carries himself different then the previous band directors did when they were here (one was a female so... meh), and he's seems like he knows what he's doing (the bands that he's directed has pretty much gotten all 1s- which is like damn-near perfect in both marching and in concert). this is weird for me... to all of a sudden become excited about band when I've never really been anxious about it before? I just hope it doesnt blow up in my face. Anxious and scared.

Lack of intelligence= chaos

People that are not really involved in situations, you find them sticking themselves in that situation. Now for me that is pointless... I appreciate the energy and willing-ness to help but at the same time... you werent THERE! You don't know what we were doing and when you're trying to come up in here- you're referring everything to the way it USED to be... not the way it is now. I hate it and I hate him. I wish people knew their place and didn't try to kiss ass so that they could move up in the ladder of authority... Why don't you do what everyone else did? And work hard on the field and then help out that way instead of leaving in the middle of the year and then coming back and trying to get in good? Just know I can see right through that. Not falling for any tricks this time.

Men= Bleh!

Girls mature faster than boys... okay I got that. So that pretty much means date up right? Well I did that... not too old only 17 so it won't be that big of an age difference. But when he asks me for the committed relationship... I was hesitant I'm not going to lie. I mean I have SOOOOOOO much going on with my job my schoolwork my volunteering, etc. My main concern was will I have time for him? I didn't want to jump into the relationship and never have time for him. That would be disastrous for the both of us (keep in my mind we don't go to the same school). ^^ Now that was a couple of weeks ago. We had been seeing each other off and on for the past two weeks and yet when I told him that I was ready for the relationship HE had been so desperately seeking... he refused! Now of course people have change of heart every 2 seconds but this is the same guy who had been pushing for me to be in a relationship since he offered it to me! So now it's all of a sudden taken off the table? Wtf?? I really like this guy and I was ready for the relationship but now if he asks me again I don't know if I can say yes to him. Craving some attention.

college college... college??

I'm going to be a junior this year... which in itself is going to be exciting. BUT that does not exactly mean I'm ready for the choices I have to make in a couple of months. Colleges are lining up and I'm backing up. I have a few choices but that does not mean the college that's not on my list is not on my mind. The schools that I have in mind are pretty decent schools and I'm excited about touring these schools but at the same time... I'm scared of the decison that I'm going to have to make. University of Texas at Austin University of Southern California Ohio State University Texas A&M University Texas Tech University University of Miami Those are the schools I'm looking at (no particular order) and I've toured USC and it is a beautiful campus, but California is an expensive place to live (especially for college students). I guess I'm just going to have tour schools and decide the one that's best for me. Once I make that decison and go off to college... I'll know if I made the right one or not. Afraid and anixous about the unknown.